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Everyone’s doing this “Facts about me” thing…

And as I’m bored I shall do mine.

I’m Gabriela, 23, mexican.

I love chocolate. Like LOVE. And Nutella is my obsession. (My favorite chocolate is Milka)

I speak 4 languages. Sort of. lol

I’m a huge soccer fan. I support Manchester United and Bayern München. I like Football to. Dallas cowboys all the way. (And Steelers somehow… don’t ask)

I enjoy baking :)

I recently deleted my Facebook account. I kind of miss it. I kind of not.

I have a tattoo on my back, a three-leaf clover.

I lived in Germany for 6 months, and I loved it there.

I’m chubby and I love it. Ok I’m on a lose-weight plan and it’s working (: 

I can be both girly and not girly. I like both hight heels with a nice blouse and some jeans with converse and my fave band’s tshirt.

People say I’m flirty. I don’t realize of it but I guess I am. 

I like chubby with a 4-day beard men =) Well I actually like any kind of man (:

I’m obsessive about ortography, at least in spanish.

I’m way too honest. I like you, I’ll tell you. I don’t like you, I’ll tell you that too.

I don’t believe in horoscopes but I believe in zodiac facts. I’m a cancer, and I’m really cancer-like. 

I have a 1 year old coker spaniel called Nira and I love her. She’s like my best friend.

I’m always smiling. No matter what or how hard things are. People never realize when something’s going on with me because I can hide it very well. Well, I use Tumblr. for letting it out :)

I work as an assistant for Hunter Engineering Company in Mexico (you can google it.)

I’m one of these anti-men girls right now. I have issues trusting someone and even more after the last one.

I like racing series. Like Nascar and F1

I’m VERY MUCH into music. I don’t know what I’d do without it. I listen to every single thing. Death Metal, Rock, Pop, Acustic, mexican stuff, Classical etc… (Ok not Justin Bieber)

I love beer. (:

I have a BlackBerry and it’s a part of me. I wouldn’t change it for the world.

I’m funny. I always manage to make people laugh. I can be VERY random at times. I don’t like people feeling sad so I’ll always do something to cheer them up. Even if I don’t know them.

This year’s been crap for me. So I’m having a hard time getting out of my sadness but I’m not well known for letting myself down.

I LOVE my country. I wouldn’t change being mexican for the world.

I love food :) Although I don’t eat a lot, I just enjoy a good taco (:

I’m a very nice person to talk to. I always talk to strangers, like the taxi driver and all, I just like meeting new people and making new friends.

I love movies. All kind of movies.

I never pretend. This is just how I am. I am just how I am. Unperfect and with a lot of bad things, but I’ll never say I am someone I am not. Whoever loves me (in any sense) has to love me and accept me just the way I am.

Disney rules my world. I can make Stitch’s voice.

I like playing X-box, Play Station, Wii and all of that stuff.

I’m VERY open minded. Like very…

I have many many books. I always buy books. I love reading.

Ok I’ve said enough lol don’t think anyone has a question but if you do, feel free to ask :)

You know how I knew I loved him?

When I didn’t imagine us having sex on a bed.

I imagined us cuddling on a bed.

But he had imagined the first one hehee

Eu te quero só pra mim…

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“The only way out”…

Lately I’ve seen so many suicidal people on Tumblr. It’s scary.

One of my friends commited suicide about three weeks ago. We used to be classies in  university, and we were really close then. About half a year ago we got into a fight (because of his drug problems) and we didn’t talk as often, although we stayed in touch. We’d text each other once a while to know if we were ok… And then I found out he had committed suicide.

I was not his best friend, nor part of his family, and it still hurt a lot. I couldn’t stop crying for days, I couldn’t sleep (I still have trouble because of bad nightmares) and I felt such a bad bug. 

When I was 12 one of my friends commited suicide too, but to be honest I didn’t really remember the feelings I felt back then… And all of them came back magnified when this other friend did it.

It’s made me think. How can someone be so screwed, how can everything be so bad, how can people be so absent that none notices? Many questions have been in my head lately.

To me, there’s always a way out. And believe me, this comes from a person who has a mental disorder and a depression problem. I’ve been on medication, yes, I’ve thought life sucks, I feel alone, I lose a lot of people, I’m SO NOT happy with what I look like, men dislike me, people plays often with my feelings, my family is so broken, I’m 23 and I feel so…failed… I have MANY MANY MANY problems, and I believe I’ve thought of dying many times, however, I would NEVER do it.

SUICIDE IS NOT A WAY OUT. 

You’ll never understand what it feels like to the people who stays. Your family, your mother, your friends. Even if you believe you’re alone and not loved, believe me, you are. 

What you actually have to do is stay close to the people who make you feel good, think it will happen, it HAS to happen. NO LIFE IN THIS WORLD IS SO SCREWED LIKE FOR IT NOT TO GET BETTER. 

So, all of you people harming yourselves and thinking life sucks, all of you who think suicide is the only way out, please, don’t.

Just don’t. Not today. Give life a second chance, give the people who loves you a second chance. Give them the chance to tell you they love you tonight, give them the chance to show you they care.

Give life a chance. 

Fact.

When a guy tells you he’s not the same as all men, and he even tries to show you he’s different, CAREFUL, he’s probably even worse than the others.